So, what can & should I do?

Nowadays, Facebook has becoming a popular channel for many people to voice out their point of view, as well as their problems, their feelings etc.  It is good to share, and it is good to have feelings.. haha.. What is that- “it is good to have feelings”? lolz.. haha.. My argument for this statement is, if we don’t have the feeling of losing /failure, we won’t experience the joyous for the victory/ the gains.. We need to have feelings..  It doesn’t matter whether at that certain point of time the feeling is positive or negative, as long as we can face it and handle it with a positive mindset and use our wisdom to convert the negative into positive..

But the thing is, after writing those posts, do we really take concrete actions to change/ to solve the problems? Do we ask back ourselves, what can and what should we do? When we get upset, when we get lost, when we feel stressed, when we get disappointed, when we feel bored, when we get panic, when we feel nervous, when we are confused, so, what can and what should we do? Ask good questions, take concrete actions.. The word “action” comprises more than the word itself, it has more meanings: in term of efforts, practice, determined, perseverance, passion, self-discipline, continuously and repeatedly etc.. We can always say something, but not everybody can act as what they said.. We can always say something, but how if the condition got into unfavorable state or when things just got messed up out of sudden? Keep the faith and goes on? Can we be that determined? Can we keep our passion till the end? Can we do it continuously and repeatedly while there seems nothing has improved? Can we still remember our goals and direction as time passes? And, yea, we are the one who are listening to our answer..

Sometimes, fast doesn’t mean we are efficient or systematic..  Perhaps, it needs practice and experience to master and do things fast and efficient..  And we can’t gain the experience without ourselves taking actions..  And as such, don’t ever say something sarcastic or not nice to hear to those people due to jealousy or whatnot, because, we will never know how much they have shed the sweats, how long they have spent the time, how much barriers they have overcome in order to achieve their goals, as the quote goes: “before you start to judge me, step into my shoes and walk the life I’ve been living and if you get as far as I am, just maybe you will see how strong I really am.”

Sometimes, we may need to slow down our pace, to look at the small details, to discover more, to listen more, to feel more, where we might not have realized that if we keep moving with a very fast speed.. Relax and take things easy.. Results don’t mean for others to see..  We are witnessing our own improvement, to how far we have actually gone from the original point..  If we can’t see the changes as what we wished to, maybe we are not putting enough effort for that, or it is not in the right path.. Put more effort.  Work even harder..  Do the best as we can, as if there is the last chance for us to strive for.. There is no “try the best” as there might not have “trial” or second chance for us..

It reminds me about my experience in learning Korean language at my university life..  I have never thought that I will take Korean language, as the subject is not compulsory, and once you took it, the grade will be counted in, ignoring it is good or bad.. If it is good, it will increase the gpa of course, but slightly, not so much in fact; and if is not, it will definitely pull down the gpa..  Regardless that, I decided to take it, alone..  Everything starts with zero.. I don’t have the basic for Korean language.. I love Korean drama, but that doesn’t mean that I am pro at Korean language.. I did have the strong feeling of giving up at first.. I couldn’t catch up with the pronunciations and the vocabulary, grammar at the beginning..  It was like entering into an alien’s world..  I scared that I couldn’t handle it well and results in the falling of my gpa..  But I insisted to take it after all, the reason is, I fought for a place for the Korean class, I really fought for that, because the Korean class has its quota, not everyone that wish to learn the Korean language can actually have that opportunity, and I got it, and so, I shouldn’t have given it up so easily..  I made up my mind to take the risk..  And, yes, I managed to obtain an A for my level 1..  

As for level 2, it was even more challenging.. That time I was in second year..  Again, I had the feeling of giving up.. The Korean class was on Tue, and the class schedule on Tue was almost full, from 8am to 6pm, non-stop..  If I didn’t take the Korean language, I would have two hours break.. Furthermore, I sat at the very far behind seat, alone.. Sometimes I could hardly hear and see.. Sometimes I just couldn’t catch up.. Sometimes, I didn’t understand..  I felt helpless sometimes.. I couldn’t help myself to look for somebody to refer to as I am just too shy to ask..  Adding on, I needed to walk around from the SSK class at DKAP to FBMK, then from FBMK rushed back to FEP.. I still remember there had been once or twice that it was raining while I rushed to FBMK for the class.. While it was raining, my heart was raining too--Why I had to do all these? But that is my choice.. I still remember.. I felt upset as my assignment didn’t do well..  And then I consoled myself that, life is not just about academic achievement.. I might get upset for not getting a good result, but, if I were to give up learning my second level, later on if I graduate, I guess I would regret –why I give up while I get the golden opportunity to learn? There were people that couldn’t get a place as the class quota was full.. Then again, I persisted to take the 2^nd level..  I still remember my carrying mark wasn’t that good.. I could only loss four points in final in order to get an A..  And out of my expectation, I managed to get it.. How happy am I as the process that I had gone through in 2^nd level is full of ups and downs!

Then, I skipped one semester before I took level 3 so that I have one semester to study on my own.. But I didn’t do as what I promised to myself as I was busying with other subjects..  What excuse is that! Feel sorry for myself.. That is how we can see the needs and importance of self-discipline.. lolz..

 Most people said the 3rd level language subject is a killer.. So what? It left only one step in order to complete all the three levels.. This time, I won’t give up easily no matter what..  Perhaps it might also be the perseverance that I have gained indirectly from my experience in learning 2^nd level that kept me moving..  

And I did enjoy a lot in my level 3.. As long as we are interested on the subject, we will find that the process can actually have a lot of fun, though, I would feel asleep sometimes while she was teaching.. haha.. There have been a time I got into a dilemma, where that day had an extra class for Korean language, at the same time, there was an internship briefing, I got to choose which one to go.. It was raining cats and dogs.. I was at FEM that time, and the briefing was at FEM too.. It would be more convenient for me to go for the internship briefing..  But at last I choose to go for the extra class.. Reason? Don’t know.. I just follow my heart.. I got bit wet and the class already started when I reached.. However, that was the time where I really pay full attention to the class and I did learn a lot..  I guess I had made a wise decision that time.. lolz..haha..

I still remember how touched I am during the last Korean language class.. omg.. Without realized, we had actually gone so far from the original point.. Feel happy.. Feel touched..

Thinking back, if I were to give up at the beginning, or in the middle, or in the last step, I won’t have that happiness, satisfaction, joyous, excitement and the touched feeling where words can’t describe! And it is funny to tell that I love Korean language even more than I was in the first level! (^_^)