Memory is such a wonderful things~ As time pass, it won't change and it can't be erased neither~
As usual, I’m back to my lovely hometown during the semester
break.. The house is getting much more quite as compared to last time.. I always have an illusion that my grandma will
b there to welcome me back.. The memories I shared with her are still fresh in
my heart.. I miss the sweet memories that we had together, seriously,
desperately.. In fact, I should have created more memories with her.. I still remember the episode where her
youngest son came back from KL to see her..
He has always been a kind son and my grandma although can’t help herself
to open her eyes as she was so energy-less that time, but I know, she could
feel the love, hear that voice calling.. She knew he were there, she knew that,
as there had some hot tears flowing down from her eyes when he called her,
telling that he had come back.. All
these scenarios are still fresh in my mind, and whenever I think about it, I
can still feel the pain.. The feeling is even stronger when I am back home,
where she supposing would be there.. There is no turning point in life.. After all these, I will come back to the real
world, telling myself that she had already gone to another world and will never
ever be here anymore, but it is ok, as she is in my heart.. While my heart is
still beating, she will always n forever lives in my heart.. I had been trying
so hard to comfort myself that there is no use to cry as we can never be able
to change the fact, or say “I love you” for so many times, wondering she could ever
hear that.. I think I am getting better
now as I have been learning to face my emotions, to let go and to live at
present.. And it is important to live at
present.. Yes, really important..
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| The place that grandma used to be there~ I miss U.. love you forever, grandma~ |
Create a great and beautiful memory while the time allows..
Perhaps it might not b a big and complicated one, but it must b a great one.. It can just be a fun talk, maybe just sitting side-by-side
silently, spare times together, laugh together, sampat together, or
heart-to-heart talk together.. Simple
yet great one.. Somebody did tell me that, if you want to have or maintain a
good relationship with others, you got to sacrifice your time for them.. hmm..
Should replace the word “sacrifice” with the word “devote” or “give” I think
hehe.. “Busy’ has always been an excuse for people most of the time.. But, I had seen a quote saying that: there is
no actual “busy”, it is about the priority.. May be, it is truth..
I understand that a newborn must balance up with
death.. Fair and square.. That’s something everyone will experience..
None of us can escape that.. In fact, everyone knows that, but not everyone are
truly aware about that or they just act as if he or she will live the world
forever..
Be grateful.. Life is
full of obstacles, tests and problems.. It is sometimes easy said than do.. Not
much people can actually do what they have said or fulfill their promise either
for ownself or for the sake of others, especially when things just go the
opposite way, or it is so full of obstacles, or got fed up as time passes.. Keep
the faith and have hope & passion.. Be
ready.. Get prepared to face any circumstances.. Learn how to complete the mission
and defeat all the monsters that come over to test our faith.. After seeing quite a number of real-life stories
that happened to some people, after some inspiring readings, or we can simply
look at every day’s news, that there are lots of tragedies that actually happened
around the world.. And of course, at the
same time, there are beautiful things too.. haha.. The thing I want to emphasize again and again
is, life is so unexpected.. Appreciate
the present moment.. Keep positive, stop complaining as there are people that
suffered so much to fight for life and they don’t even know whether they will
win the battle after all those hurtful, painful sufferings, or wondering after
won the battle will that strike them again, or there are people that can’t see,
can’t hear, can’t speak, or without limbs or they had been once able to see,
hear, speak, or with perfect limbs, but those gifts had been taken away from
them for any reasons, or those that have lost everything-the properties and the
loved one due to disaster or accident or whatnot, and they still manage to
stand up and keep themselves moving on.. Feel blissful that if not of their
inspiring stories, I won’t have realized so many things.. Or I will keep being pessimistic
and negative and it shouldn't be that way.. I wonder how the frequency
functions to bring me to discover or come across to know all these, by chance,
or whatsoever the reason it is, thanks anyway for all those inspiration..
Go for the life you really want to, and start it off with
the innermost heart.. Be alert and try
to find out and discover the beauty in life, as well as the blissful gifts that
have been given to us.. Practice
kindness, give out our love whenever possible, and find the true meaning in
life, because those are the powerful properties that one’s should own and those
are the properties that won’t be taken away unless we want to! True love should
not be defined or limited to only bf v gf’s relationship; it can also exist in just
organism v organism’s relationship. True love is simple, unconditional. It
shouldn't make our life so complicated and troublesome that there are people
that would rather forsake everything in life and go suicide just for love, if
it does, it is not a true love.. There
had been times where I really felt that love is so fake and dirty, I had been doubted
about love, BUT now my mind changes.. True
love will give people warm and hope, if it ever gives people negative feelings,
then that is not a true one.. Let go the
fake one and be aware of the true one.. Do not try to close the heart so hard despite
those betrayal or whatever, because we might need to double up the effort in order to
open the closed heart again.. Do not stop to believe in true love! Never ever
stop showing or sending our love to others while we still got the chance to do
so! =)
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