warmth comes after coolness

Lets rewind what happened yesterday..  Have been waiting for two hours before the kinta bus finally came, misses two kinta buses which were unwilling to stop to pick up the passengers , one was due to too many passengers in the bus, another due to unknown reason as the bus was not full, so I classified it as driver’s irresponsibility.. Adding on, there is a restaurant beside the bus stop, and the cars were simply being parked by those people, which had hindered our vision to look for the bus.. Luckily, I was not alone that time.. There were people waiting with me too, making me felt more secured..

By the way I reached home, it was already around 940pm.. From 630pm, waited till 830pm, got onto the bus, jammed, took one hour plus to reach.. damn.. 

But what touches me is, when I was almost reached home by walking, from far, I was shocked to see my uncle was standing outside the house, waiting for me to come back.. My auntie was waiting at home too.. I was touched, because, they normally go to sleep early.. They were supposed to have their sweet dream at that time..  When I was in the bus, I was still thinking:” who cares? “But their kind deeds make me feel the warmth when I was so cool, both physically and mentally, as the air-corn of the bus that I got on was damaged.. And the weather was so cool to me that time.. But, all these become unimportant, as the inert coolness had been balanced up with the inert warmth, though was still felt cool physically..

   

It was in the “coolness”, that the question “who cares?” being asked, will provide the clear answer..

Sometimes, I wonder, is it better not to know the time? When working, sometimes, I tend to look at the clock, and start to count down.. While waiting for the bus, I tend to look at my watch, to calculate how long I have been waiting..  All these made me feel that myself was not being present.. However, undeniable, on the other way of looking, time is important so that we can do adequate preparation, planning before time, be puncture to work etc..

I wonder if somewhere some people experience the same thing with me too? Haha.. If it were, will they experience the same feeling as me too? 

Thanks for being a good example

Shift department every week during my intern, from admin, to inventory control department (ICD), customer service, then to HR, account and this week back again to ICD..

If u were to ask me, which department I like the most, and which job I like the most, I will definitely give two different answers to each question.. 

To me, the working environment, the people that work with, is far more important than the job itself..   I encountered people which always being that sarcastic and inconsiderate, but at the same time, I encountered people who are so kind, tolerate and considerate, too.. Sometimes it really makes me feel not good to face some people's bad attitude, but I am grateful, as because of that, I am get more appreciated to those with good attitude and personality, and not to become those that make me feel not good.. Besides, I experienced the difference between the environment working at office, and the environment working at place other than office: warehouse.. I was shocked to notice the difference.. WHY is it that people working at warehouse, with no air-corn, with the lack of manpower, needs to carry goods from here to there, and there to here, and they can do all these without grumbling, and besides, they are also real, both inside and out, which is totally contradict with those working in the office, with air-corn, without the needs to use so much energy, as they were sitting comfortably at office most of the time.. WHY it can be that contradict???!!  WHY it is that way and not the other way round?! The environment at warehouse is so friendly, with no “story” from A and different “story” from B which is just so complicated.. The thing I even get shocked when I saw the supervisor helped in cleaning, picking up the rubbish around the big, green rubbish bin.. It happened yesterday..  It was a rainy day, the rubbish was simply being thrown around the rubbish bin.. He, with a raincoat, a boot shoes, a cap, helped to clean up the place!!! OMG.. I touched, really really touched!! He won’t be given any extra bonus for that, but he did it too, and IT WAS RAINNING!!! IT WAS A BIG RUBBISH BIN!!! He really went to the big green rubbish bin and picked up the rubbish, which was wet, with his hands!!! He compressed the rubbish so that there would be enough space for rubbish, and he did it by going inside to the big green rubbish, and stepping on the rubbish with his feet! He can always ask his staff, warehouse assistant or top cleaner to clean the rubbish, but he didn’t.. He did it himself..  Some more, he isn’t needed to do all these at all.. That’s not inside his job scope..  But he did it too without thinking any reward.. He is so considerate, I guess it was because of raining, that’s why he didn’t call up the cleaners.. He was not angry, not even one word of complaining..  While his staff went to help up, he was worried and asked whether he needed a boot..  By the way he finished cleaning, he got wet.. Before he could sit down and rest, there was lorry coming to send stocks.. Being the supervisor at warehouse (receiving area), he got to receive the stocks, chops, signs, checks, records etc.. I was grateful to witness all these.. I won’t believe it until I witness that.. Who will believe a supervisor will do that.. But he did.. He did it while no one else, but just the ICD and warehouse assistants know about it.. He is the best supervisor I ever seen!!!! He is a good example to me! Not only a good example being a leader, but also a good example to be a responsible and dedicated people!! He thinks not only himself, but others.. He had been so considerate, tolerate, caring, and kind to me too, though I am so blur.. I had once seen him doing his job while during rest time.. Again, he won’t be given any extra pay for that!! And frankly speaking, the company is kinda selfish in paying wages to the employees.. Warehouse department is the department that is so dedicated.. There had been a stadium fare held for one week plus, they are the ones who bring the stocks to and from stadium, and, I got to know that they cleaned up the stocks at stadium till 230am, and the next day, they need to work as normal, on 930am!!!!!! I don’t know what to say, but touched.. I would say, all the warehouse staffs are so kind, so dedicated, so nice, so caring, so considerate, so loving, so tolerate.. : “Tak tau Tanya, perlahan-perlahan tak pe”,  “tidak semua orang pandai buat semua benda, ada yang mereka pandai buat, ada yang mereka tak pandai”, “sudah makan? Makan apa?”, “jangan cakap penat, buat apa pun penat, tidur satu hari pun penat kan? Jadi, buat saje, jangan cakap penat”, “saya suka penat, buat kerja tak penat tak best, penat tidur best, esok pagi baru fresh”, “experience, bagus” etc.. omg, those kind words did hit me.. They are so understanding!!! I was down because I didn’t manage to do the job well.. I need those kind words that time.. I was surprise, how they can be so understanding to me! I got strength from them.. I can say, warehouse, though no air corn, it is the best department to work with..  Although I was placed at ICD, haha, but actually warehouse and ICD is just two departments that works together, warehouse department to receive goods, while ICD is to check goods.. Frankly, I am not really like the job at ICD, to check goods, because when the goods is so much, it can get into very very messy condition.. And we need to find the supervisor to check the goods with us together, and sometimes, it is hard to find the supervisor, sometimes they got so busy to ask for, sometimes, we need to listen to their grumble and scold when asking to check the goods received together..  I could understand sometimes, that they are busy, as I also don’t like people to disturb while doing my own job, but what to do, ICD can’t proceed without supervisor..  And if ICD can’t proceed, supplier got to wait, and the goods can’t brought in to display for customers to buy..  Considerate from all parties is absolutely important..

I learned from them, what is meant to be dedicated and responsible, which can only be shown by actions and deeds..  Dedicated is not only limited to only their own job, but the whole company.. Thanks for the care, thanks for being so considerate, and that tolerate to me as I was so slow, and blur.. Thanks for being the good example of a leader that made me wana to follow.. Thanks for making me believe many good leaders do exist.. Thanks for touches my heart with your kind deeds during the time I felt uneasy about the quality of some people with post.. lolz.. Thanks for inspiring me in terms of what should do and shouldn’t act like when one day we became a leader.. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.. =)

Be present

When works and play makes no difference to us, we know, that is the time where we really enjoy all the processes in life, for every moment, every single details in life..  Whatever that comes to us, we enjoy it, feel it, and live it..

One day, I will make it true.. =)

How to be present????? I am still learning..

“Where the stocks put at? The stock is to return or to receive? The goods short how many grams? Where put the files at? Where have the things put to?” etc.. The moment giving the response of “I DON’T KNOW”---I know, it is a sign of not being present.. Must get it improved.. I will..

Only to be present, we live..

I wish I am given wisdom to understand other people, what they thinks and how they feels, to put ourselves into their position, as I know, our deeds sometimes did influence others.. Learn to be considerate.. But before that, to understand others, we need to understand our first.. To know what and why we are feeling so, to feel what is to feel, to feel how the feeling actually is, and let go the negative feeling..

I live.. =)

angel beats demon, always

To how many times that need to undergo the loss of the things, people, pets and many more others before get to readily learn how to appreciate every single of them.. for every single minute?? To how many times that is needed to suffer for the loss so as to readily realize or learn how much we actually love those things more than we can ever imagine?

Sometimes, I wonder why people suffered so much with those pains and fought so much for survival still able to stand still and be that positive while those that are much luckier but still grumbling and crowded with those negative thoughts.. I wonder how that goes, but I believe, everything happens for a reason.. Well, though feeling psychologically imbalance haha,  I know I shouldn’t judge anything.. One thing for sure fair and square is, we were born to this world, and one day we got to let go everything and leave.. Maybe what differentiate that will be the moment we leave-- are we in peace? Have we live fully? Appreciate, makes no regret.. And, learn to let go.. Whether the person that leave is Thou or me, letting go is always a good lesson.. Letting go, a lesson where everyone needs to undergo.. People leaves, one by one……

This week I had been crowded with some negative thoughts quite frequently.. As quote goes, we need to be a happy person before we can bring happiness to the person around.. We need to be a positive person so that we can spread out the positive frequency.. I know that.. In fact  I was happy that there was once during my intern, a people told me that he was happy to see me in the morning, because I would smile whenever we met.. I was touched by that, really.. You know, it gives me a lot of strength.. haha.. How powerful kind words and actions is.. I am sorry that sometimes I got irritated by words and deeds easily..  Thanks for those that still able to bear with me during the time where even I myself couldn't able to bear with myself due to clumsiness, irrationality, emo, and other flaws that myself might not realize..

I guess I am better at consoling.. haha.. at least to console myself.. Easy said than done, especially during a comfort environment, to make a promise isn't a big problem, just easy to say out.. But when something that happened really turns down, I forget the promise to myself: be positive.. be happy.. just smile..  However, I am blissful because, whenever I see demon, there I see angels too..  and the power of angel has always won..  I felt touched, deep from my heart.. There can see, who really being sincere, and caring.. Keep reminding myself that not people’s responsibility to treat us well.. So not to blame if they don’t and be grateful when they do..  I had been finding my ways to convince myself, to comfort myself.. Sometimes I feel funny that what I said to people, when it comes to me to face the situation, I can’t convince myself with those reasons.. haha..  But now, I guess there is some improvement, to convince myself that be always positive, appreciate and live in the moment, and be high in EQ and wisdom.. If we don’t want what others do to us, don’t do that to others too.. Don’t build our emotion to other people.. Be rational..

People, lets us do it together, ok? Appreciate, live in the moment.. Be positive, be happy, be patient, be strong, be responsible.. Just smile no matter how we feel.. We will never know there might be some people that need our sincere smile..  Spread out the love! Be positive, so that the environment around us is positive with our existence! We will never know how great it feel when we can readily find the meaning of our existence, really..  Keep the faith! All the best! =)

A nice song which gives me strength^^