fruitful year 2013

See how fruitful I am this year! WoW~~

1st time went Thai, 1st time exchange, 1st time sat train for so long, 1st time go "oversea" lolz~

It is just very nice to embrace nature!

1st flight~ 1st time went Taiwan~ 1st time become backpacker~

～读万卷书，行万里路～

敞开心灵之窗看世界，开拓视野，感受不同的文化背景，指标，拥抱大自然。。。

感受人生，享受人生！^^

it is just a process

Wif tis,finished the very first part of my fyp presentation..no formal T &shoes, no slides, proposal still under process, in sitting position when presenting,not more than 30 minutes time...get it done without knowing tat I nid to present! *unbelievable* omg..@@ haha..

My FEM 4999A..
Not well n thoroughly presented.. Yet, lucky tat i got bring my drafts there to see him, my evaluator, as I was thinking to go with empty hand at first.. haha..luckily had prepared my slide the day before, though didn't use it at all, at least can roughly speak on it haha..

Lucky? yea, I am blessed..

Still remember I mentioned before, life is made up of bit by bit processes.. And yeah, this is one of the many.. but that doesn't mean that we can cincai (simply) do it, cincai settle it.. Instead, we should do our best in the every processes.. When we give our best on every single of it, then we are meant to give all our best in our life, too.. Just like the quality of final product, depends not only on one aspect, but on many different aspects, different processes, e.g. the planning, the operations in processing the products,  the problem solving etc.. and so do life~
Perhaps, it is the process that teaches us many things: the skills, some realization, some life lessons, some valuable experiences, despite we may not be able to see how significant or how useful the process is, to apply in future.. Just be patient, and keep the faith.. And do our best~ and so everything will come to light one day..

Still remember my good friend told me something which is so encouraging: You may not know there are people who wish to become like you.. She was indirectly telling me that: we shouldn't look down on ourself.. Thanks Jez, you are so supportive along the way.. =)

Somehow, we shouldn't judge merely on what we see..
我看你好,你看我好~ We may not know what the other people have gone through behind without our knowledge in order to have that elegant, graceful, gorgeous, winning smile and success.. Just like I doesn't want to be those well-known people, as I know there might be some bitter experiences which not everyone can endure..
“印度有一个寓言故事，叫“交换痛苦”。
佛陀为了消除人间的痛苦，选了100个自认为生活得最痛苦的人，让他们每个人在一张纸上写下自己的痛苦。然后，要他们不断地互相交换记录各自痛苦的纸张，认真看看。最后，要他们选择一下，留下自己可以接受的痛苦。
 结果，几乎每个人都要找回自己的那张纸~"
Yea, I will, too, pick up mine.. ^^

Sometimes, I wish Doraemon had a “角色交换”棒 ( role-switching stick), especially for those who keep complaining about their life, not feeling grateful, not realizing how blessed they actually are, to exchange with those that struggle so much behind, yet still able to stand up still and keep going positively despite life fails them..

Wish 'm able to stand on other people shoes, see through other's people eyes.. wish to bring more happiness n comfort to others by being more alert.. wish to be more considerate n understanding by being more observative.. That's what some people have given to me: caring, kind, love, hope, alert, enter and integrate their world with mine, which have made me feel really warm, secured and comfortable to be with! Shouldn't just take without giving out.. So, yeah.. Self-transformation is seriously needed to achieve these.. Perhaps I need to get myself more involve in every process? haha..

The moment I decide to be a positive person, my life changes to be more n more beautiful~ cheers (^_^)

功课

对“死亡”--这门学问开始起了研究～
对摄影起了兴趣～
对人生与人生哲理想领悟和了解更多更多～

While I thought that I was learning how to live, I have been learning how to die.  ~Leonardo Da Vinci

Death is beautiful when seen to be a law, and not an accident - It is as common as life.  ~Henry David Thoreau, 11 March 1842, letter to Ralph Waldo Emerson

["每个人都知道自己要死，"莫里重复道，"可没人愿意相信。如果我们相信这一事实的话，我们就会作出不同的反应。"
“Everyone knows they’re going to die,” he said again, “but nobody believes it. If we did, we would do things differently.”
“Yes. But there’s a better approach. To know you’re going to die, and to be prepared for it at any time. That’s better. That way you can actually be more involved in your life while you’re living.”
‘意识到自己会死，并时刻作好准备。这样做会更有帮助。你活着的时候就会更珍惜生活’
“Do what the Buddhists do. Every day, have a little bird on your shoulder that asks, ‘Is today the day? Am I ready? Am I doing all I need to do? Am I being the person I want to be?”
"像佛教徒那样。每天，放一只小鸟在你的肩膀上问，'是今天吗？我准备好了吗？能生而无悔，死而无憾了？'"
“once you learn how to die, you learn how to live.”
"学会了死，就学会了活。"
“most of us all walk around as if we’re sleepwalking. We really don’t experience the world fully, because we’re half-asleep, doing things we automatically think we have to do.”
"我们大多数人都生活在梦里。我们并没有真正地在体验世界，我们处于一种浑浑噩噩的状态，做着自以为该做的事。"
“The things you spend so much time on—all this work you do—might not seem as important. You might have to make room for some more spiritual things.”
"你为此而付出时间和精力的事--你所做的工作--也许就不再显得那么重要了。你也许会让出空间来满足精神上的需求。"
"拂去外表的尘埃，你便看到了生活的真谛。当你意识到自己快要死去时，你看问题的眼光也就大不一样了。"
“even I don’t know what ‘spiritual development’ really means. But I do know we’re deficient in some way. We are too involved in materialistic things, and they don’t satisfy us. The loving relationships we have, the universe around us, we take these things for granted.”
"尽管我说不上来'精神产物'到底为何物，但我知道我们在有些方面确实是有缺陷的。我们过多地追求物质需要，可它们并不能使我们满足。我们忽视了人与人之间互相爱护的关系，我们忽视了周围的世界。"
“Yes. I look out that window every day. I notice the change in the trees, how strong the wind is blowing. It’s as if I can see time actually passing through that windowpane. Because I know my time is almost done, I am drawn to nature like I’m seeing it for the first time.”
"你看见了？你可以去外面，任何时候。你可以在大街上发疯似地跑。可我不能。我不能外出。我不能跑。我一出大门就得担心生玻但你知道吗？我比你更能体味那扇窗户。"]
FROM : Tuesdays with Morrie (相约星期二）

"The two hardest things to say in life, are hello for the first time, and goodbye for the last~"

"When someone you love becomes a memory, that memory becomes a wonderful treasure to always hold in your heart miss you forever & always."

Blogging do give me some strength.. It acts as a reminder to me~ In case I forget.. the feelings, the processes, the points, the moments, the experiences, the memories, the life lessons, whatever that i have had and learned.. To remind me how blessed I am.. to remind me how grateful to have those significant people in my life..
And how far I have come to..

死亡，如果是一个不幸，可是不放防假设一个死亡的功课，然后你用这个眼睛，去看你自己周遭的东西，你会觉得好像每一样都好珍惜。-- 蔣勳

"The only time you should look back in life, is to see how far you have come."  Kevin Hart quotes

《生命纪念册》

有人用文字写日记、有人用相机留下纪录，你会用什麽来呈现一生？毕业生写毕业纪念册，人生就要有一本「生命纪念册」。

因为没有人能预测明天将会发生什麽事、也没有人保证下一秒是否还在世上，跟著册中的指引，将生命中最重要的人事物写下来，让谢谢、对不起、我爱你圆满整个生命，也让每位爱你的人都能在你离去时平安不慌张。

最想说的话、最想对谁说话、想要用何种方式告别最爱的人┅，种种的生命历程，在「生命纪念册」中都能获得解答。

你送过最棒的礼物是什麽？你收过最窝心的礼物是什麽？

生命纪念册~一份充满爱的礼物    
(摘自网路）

Lets make this blog as my 生命纪念册 too!

"Whatever i have tried to do in life, I have tried to do with all my heart to do it well; whatever i have devoted myself to, I have devoted myself completely; in great aims and in small I have always thoroughly been in earnest"

harmonious n so feel peaceful

When do we know that we have made the right choice?
When we feel peaceful with our decisions..
When our actions are in accordance with our mindset..
When our actions are in harmonious with our philosophical values..
When we know that we will not regret for the decisions made..

"Everyone is trying to accomplish something big, not realizing that life is made up of little things." Frank A. Clark

Life is made up of the bit by bit processes..
Decision making process is inevitable
Different decision lead us to different direction
When we feel peaceful with every decision made,
When we feel peaceful with every processes,
At the END, we will feel peaceful with our life..

“Life's just a bunch of accidents, connected by one perfect end.”  Daniel C. Tomas

“I will fight until the end”  Breaking Benjamin

Life is full of unforeseen circumstances
full of surprise
full of excitement
And so train ourselves to be more FLEXIBLE--the ability to make changes or deal with a situation as it changes..

“It is wonderful how much may be done if we are always doing.” Thomas Jefferson

Yea, I choose to be there.. Despite the assignments and homework, despite the Korean class, yet I felt peaceful, really~ And from there I know, I had made a wise choice, a wise decision.. =) To see you so surprise, to see you so happy, everything is all worth =)  I will not gain these mixture of touched, happy, loved and those indescribable feelings if I choose to spend all my times with my own personal stuffs.. Never..

"Life is an exciting business, and most exciting when it is lived for others."  Helen Keller 

And after coming back, then I was told by my friend that the Korean class was cancelled that day.. omg.. is really.. There was once I was thinking, how good if this week no Korean TOPIK class~ and yeah, it proves to me AGAIN, POSITIVE attracts POSITIVE.. thanks~ ^^ *Keep the FAITH*

“People tend to be generous when sharing their nonsense, fear, and ignorance. And while they seem quite eager to feed you their negativity, please remember that sometimes the diet we need to be on is a spiritual and emotional one. Be cautious with what you feed your mind and soul. Fuel yourself with positivity and let that fuel propel you into positive action.” 
― Steve Maraboli

“Get going. Move forward. Aim High. Plan a takeoff. Don't just sit on the runway and hope someone will come along and push the airplane. It simply won't happen. Change your attitude and gain some altitude. Believe me, you'll love it up here.” 
― Donald Trump

Dear, you said, am willing to sacrifice my time for you, you said am really take the actions to do.. You said you really agree with what I said: "时间是给一个人的最佳礼物。。" But dear, you know how much it is to pay for this lesson... I don't want to make myself regret any longer.. You know what is the main force that pull me there? is because, I don't wanna to make myself regret later on..
I have learned, for every decision made, every action take, make sure that it won't make you regret, not only at the current moment, but also in future, in life..

“As you grow older, you'll find the only things you regret are the things you didn't do.” Zachary Scott

"At the end of your life, you will never regret not having passed one more test, not winning one more verdict or not closing one more deal. You will regret time not spent with a husband, a friend, a child, or a parent."   Barbara Bush 

You said you felt bad because you was unable to spare your time with us.. But you know, to see you, even just for a short moment is so much precious to me.. You did spend a lot of your time with us too, just you didn't realize.. You too, put a lot of your efforts and your sincere heart with us too^^

Things finally fall into place.. The questions I keep asking, the life lessons which I hope to learn more will fall into place one day.. Perhaps to get all these answers, what we can do is; go out and experience, explore, every little, every single moment, process in life.. Be present, appreciate the moment.. Sometimes, we will got the answers during the processes, at a time where we less expect..



"Always Do Your Best. Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick. Under any circumstance, simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse and regret." Miguel Angel Ruiz 

"We are at our very best, and we are happiest, when we are fully engaged in work we enjoy on the journey toward the goal we've established for ourselves. It gives meaning to our time off and comfort to our sleep. It makes everything else in life so wonderful, so worthwhile." Earl Nightingale 


Yea, Life, is full of excitement! B-)

“At the end of life we will not be judged by how many diplomas we have received, how much money we have made, how many great things we have done.
We will be judged by "I was hungry, and you gave me something to eat, I was naked and you clothed me. I was homeless, and you took me in.” ― Mother Teresa

surprise

LAST weekend is just like a dream..
It was kinda mix feelings to say..
touched to see that u had come that far from the original point
touched to see how strong n optimistic  gal u are
touched to see your growing process after going through some turning points and there u come
touched to know that I have a place in you even after apart for so long 
sad for missing the old old times so so much that v cant go backwards any longer
sad that v r so busy with our own stuffs that v didn't contact as much as v did before
sad that v r unable to see each other everyday as v once were
sad that I might not always be by your side whenever you going through
sad that I wish I were more alert n considerate people, so to bring you more joyous, comfort, n happiness
sad that time changes things
happy to see u
happy to see u happy
happy to be able to witness the process
happy that there is still a non-stop conversation when we get together
happy that we still share the same philosophical values
happy that you told me something touched me so so deeply
grateful that we are friends with so much common in personality which could in fact not so easy to find one
grateful that u have taught me so much on life and many other matters
grateful that u have been so kind, so nice , so considerate and alert to me
grateful that u treat people with the sincere heart
grateful to meet u in my life
grateful that u had accompanied me at some points in my life
grateful that u had once changed the quite gal into a crazy gal that simply laugh without any reason
grateful for all the sweet memories in which v were together
grateful that u know so many faults of mine, how emo I can go to, but still able to bear with me which even I cant
grateful for being so kind so loved
Feel even more touched n happy to see u felt touched n happy!
haha.. Sweet sweet k~
Proud of u, dear~
Miss u~
Friendship forever!

Special for u, Shi Yew, my best friend ever  =) Take care n fighting together la~ *huggies*

Learn before it is too late

Sometimes, I wonder, will it be too late for us to treat others better? Will v treat other people in different way if v know their little life story behind, or the struggles undergone by them? (knowing that everyone of us own a unique life story).. Will there be other chance for us to treat others better? Will it too late to realize or to reveal their life story? Would it be too late when we got to know what really happened? would it be too late the kind word, caring n support come?

Still remember I once asked: till when I would learn to be more alert, to appreciate, before v eventually had no choice but to let go? After some searching n readings through the inspiring quotes as well as own thinking and curiosity, now I realized, test will be given to us again n again, again n again, until we readily pass through those tests with consistent flying colours, perhaps~ For every test, every problems, definitely there will be solutions for it, just maybe v need to repeatedly undergo the similar tests with the same objective, till v finally find our ways out..

Lets refresh back, what tests, that v had undergone again n again, which transformed us into the person v r now?

"Everything that happens in life is neither good nor bad. It just depends on your perspective. And no matter how it turns out, it always ends up just the way it should. Either you succeed or you learn something. So stay positive, appreciate the pleasant outcomes, and learn from the rest. Your positivity will rub off on everyone around you."

Sometimes, I am dreamed, dreamed that I could embrace her again.. but the moment I woke up, my heart sunk~ because that will never going to happen, till the point v meet one day.. The fact that you had left, still remained unreal to me sometimes, though you had left for almost eight months.. I know, I really know, v shouldn't cry for the same reason again n again. but it is just kinda.......during the time when u just cant stop thinking: why I don't do something when I still got the chance?! The feeling of losing someone that u have always taken granted for, that you didn't know how to appreciate, that u just know how to receive the love without giving back, but still love you more than they love themselves.....the feeling is kinda..............(no exact word can be used to describe how the feeling like~) 
I miss u, 阿嫲～Love you, 永远爱您～ <3

I really need to thank my dear friends, Shu xian, Lai yee for the instant, warmth messages when that time we are in different states due to semester break.. Still remember the time I was almost burst into tears in front of sx, as for the first time, after so long (the day before v go to Taipei, so is already about seven months), telling her the "thorns" inside my heart that stabbed on me, how I actually think & feel.. Thanks for all the kind and caring words, telling me that she wouldn't be happy too, to see you unhappy~ She can't go with peace when seeing us so sad~ Thanks also to Weng Loon, even just a simple question: 'are u ok?' had given me so much positive energy~ Thanks~ =)
Perhaps, I am still learning~ Perhaps, learning is a continuous process in life, perhaps life is a continuous learning process~ haha, do it make any difference?

"Life is about management" --988今晚最night听

Same goes with my final year uni life now, non-stop assignments, tutorials, editing FYP, this and that, that and this.. 
Maybe, that's one of the test given to teach us how to manage our time efficiently, to be more systematic in life, to remain calm and steady for whatever that comes to you, to remain positive despite the unforeseen circumstances, to balance up every element in life, e.g. family, friend, study, works, spirit, wisdom, EQ etc.. I saw the hidden blessings behind, how about u? Be positive, smile, just because life has given us a chance to learn! To learn before it is getting too late........

Despite the busy life, I still wana to live my life with the philosophies~ to enjoy my life, to explore more, and to discover the beauty in life! haha.. =)

I wish, when the day finally comes, there will be some voice whispering: "I had been recording your life story, every single deeds u have done, good and bad, and here it is", "you had done a great job, you had conquered whatever tests that had given" "Congrates that you learnt the power of  gratitude,  love, and faith" "Congrates that you had come that far" "Congrates that you had learnt to let go" "Congrates that you have learned, without escaping, even though the process might not be that easy"...  B-)

一萝萝惊

“人生”，该如何诠释好呢？

最近发现到了很多算是她们部分的人生剧情吧？有悲，有喜，更多是惊～
这算是人生的一部分吗？

"entire life is made up of bits n bites in life.. family, friends, schoolife, working life, partner, marriage, children, knowledge that we gain, skills that v acquired, lessons that v learned, places that v travel, food that we consume, sights that v enjoy....etc..this is the entire life~" from one of my close friend..

如果身边的人不快乐/有事，自己也是快乐不起的～

对身边的人好一点
人生，真的有好多”估你不到“的事，的东西，的人～
家破人亡，分离，病痛，心灵。。。

是的，我应该对你好点的。。为什么都没发现到呢？都没想到呢。。

I know sometimes, what we can do is in fact very limited, but I know and I believe that there are some hidden blessings somehow, no matter how life turns us down, either at once, or little by little..

My prayers are always with Y'll , as Y'll are made up part of my life, taking up some space in my heart! =)

“For Equilibrium, a Blessing:
Like the joy of the sea coming home to shore,
May the relief of laughter rinse through your soul.

As the wind loves to call things to dance,
May your gravity by lightened by grace.

Like the dignity of moonlight restoring the earth,
May your thoughts incline with reverence and respect.

As water takes whatever shape it is in,
So free may you be about who you become.

As silence smiles on the other side of what's said,
May your sense of irony bring perspective.

As time remains free of all that it frames,
May your mind stay clear of all it names.

May your prayer of listening deepen enough
to hear in the depths the laughter of god.” 
― John O'Donohue, To Bless the Space Between Us: A Book of Blessings

“Although time seems to fly, it never travels faster than one day at a time. Each day is a new opportunity to live your life to the fullest. In each waking day, you will find scores of blessings and opportunities for positive change. Do not let your TODAY be stolen by the unchangeable past or the indefinite future! Today is a new day!” 
― Steve Maraboli, Life, the Truth, and Being Free

awakening the child inside

Have attended a music concert yesterday: awakening the child inside.. Felt a bit doze off at first (not because of the music, just felt exhausted originally before the concert), till the 5th song--the lord of the ring, it really attracted my attention with its creative way of presentation, creative and high quality video, nice and touching voice and good essence of content.. the songs that following after were really *thumbs up*.. memories of friendship--it really reminded me on some friends that are with me during the ups and downs, as well as the little little things that worth remembering, that have made me so blessed, so grateful.. Followed by the songs: abba gold, deep purple.. followed with the end-call: doraemon n 童话: Nice indeed!

I really felt lucky to be there, as I was kinda reluctant to attend at first.. I never thought that it would make me feel so touched.. the most important thing is, I never thought of it really awaken the child inside of mine! Bingo!

Perhaps, we need to take the steps to undergo and experience something from the inside of our heart then only we know how it really taste~ Perhaps the more tension and busy we got into, the more we need to go out from there, to relax and take a depth, depth breathe! Temporary escape from the tension and treat ourselves a little bit better~  Despite the stress, we need to enjoy our life too! not forgetting that we need to spare some times with the people around us!

Message got from this concert: Still remember that when we were still a kid, no matter how many times we fall down, we will stand up again.. as we growing up, more and more things comes to us, and we were no longer as "simple" as we once were...... Lets find it back, the child inside, and keep the spirit with us..=)

Stop complaining, just work harder

Sometimes feel kinda @@||| listening to some frequent complains.. well, it is not my place to judge, as I am not them.. In fact I had been a negative person that always grumbling, and the worst part is, I did not realize that until one of my close friend told me so.. But I hope now I have changed or have transformed to appreciate instead of wasting energy on grumbling.. Sometimes I wonder if, people complain that life is tough, complaining that: "ah!! so tired!" very frequently, maybe is because they have the ability and capability to carry out those "something" that make them feel so tired? Sometimes, it comes across my mind to think about that, if the disabilities complain less about their life compared to those who have perfect limbs? And sometimes, tired or not, it depends on the willpower as well as the enthusiasm an individual possess..
Behind an able men there are always other able men.. There are always someone (or something) better (or worse).. and once the storm has over, whatever rains that come to u will be somehow nothing to mention.. when u think that your life is tough, think about that there are people who suffered more than you do.. When you feel tired, never forget that they are actually many others feel exactly the same way as you do.. say "NO" to self-pity~
I really miss those positive people at my intern last time that told me: must work tired then only best! then only can sleep well at night! I still remember those kind words, though my memory is somehow loss somewhere sometimes.. lolz..
It is funny how once the "big things" can change into "small things" , and once the "small things" can change to be a very "big things" as time pass.. and how the significance can becomes insignificance, and insignificance becomes significance..
Steady, man! ^^
Keep our circle positive k!

"Everything will be OKAY.. Think about what happened a year today.. You probably can't even remember.
Everything that seems important now won't be anymore.. Things find a way of working themselves out.
Things aren't as impossible as they seem. Whatever happens is what is supposed to happen.."

it is the courage that matters

真的是犯贱，很想要爬山却又怕死～lolz..哈哈
But indeed, worth it, really~ Thinking back, I really feel lucky to have been there, or else I might not get the chance to be there for my entire life..lolz.. haha..
Really an eye-opening experience!! The process almost took us  five hours.. It is exhausting, but worth it!!! (^_^)  I'm so sorry, to have given some troubles to my teammates due to the leaking water tumbler, as well as my bad stamina and my timidness..
The journey seemed like never ending.. really couldn't believe the moment we finally arrived..*feeling touched*.. it is kinda unbelievable--how I could conquer this mountain with all those really challenging points??!!! How I overcome that?!! I still remember, it took me some times to get the courage to overcome the fear, but thanks to my teammates' assistance and motivation given, i managed, though i have stuck at some points for quite long time, which delayed the time of arrival @@
I own a very very nice bunch of friends!! Really really have to thanks to all my teammates.. Thanks for bringing us there, thanks for guiding the route for the very first time, thanks for the efforts done on planning and everything, thanks to the drivers, thanks for the plain water-- it is priceless, thanks for the care, support, motivation, thanks for the helps, thanks for the guidance and encouragement given, thanks for being tolerance and patience to me, u guys all are so great! though i was in "silent" mode that time, as I have some little problem on breathing sometimes.. Talking while walking do make me feel bit of breathless sometimes due the scar left since few years ago, nothing much.. haha..
Yea, it is true--the mission will never ever get completed without them, and I will not be there at all neither.. Grateful to have them :-)
"Don't think of what you will lose, think of what you will get in front"
"Sometimes you need to brave yourself to glide a bit"
"Sometimes you gotta to believe that you can do"
"You can!"
"we work as a team"
"just step on it"
"take a rest"
"drink water" and more and more...
ALL THESE ARE SO POWERFUL, SO PRICELESS, SO VALUABLE THAT KEEP ME MOVING FORWARD!!!
The Nature is really great--roots can save life! rocks can save life! wonderful!
Continue to explore the beauty in life^^ Explore more, discover more, create more n more happy and precious experience! as much as I can, as long as I ever can.. :-D
*looking forward* haha..
Great memories kept.. Kindness remembered..
Love life!
=)

Beautiful scenery at Bukit Tabur~

Really thanks to them^^ If not because of them, I won't b able to conquer this mountain~

A team consists the five of us ~ ^^ A成, chui B, poh C, Sook D, 伦 E ^^

Say powerful words

Powerful words : "Love you!" "support you!" "Thank you!" "I am here!"
how many times do we really practice saying these powerful words to our valued ones with our sincerity?
I am sorry for not saying all these out, even tough i know the times i was supposed to do so, but the evil shy had halted me to do the right things.. courage, wisdom, please embrace me always k.. XD

"tomorrow" has always given us a new chance, but do we really appreciate every single new chance?

So, wait for what!

To 阿娘，阿伯，阿嫲 (she is always in my heart), my cousin brothers and sisters, my beloved friends: I love you all,永远爱着您们! 

time investment

how we "invest" our time is really matters.. where n how n with who we devote our time to, it really means something.. 

DO WHILE u STILL GOT the CHANCE, please.. 

Never ever let ourselves to have any chance to regret.. In the end, we will only regret for the things we didn't do.. I think i have been tweeted this quite often since the time my grandma left me.. know why? because it is really really hurtful.. I hope people wont make the same mistake as I do, for not doing the thing while there is still a chance.. and also, at one point of time, if v do not do the thing we can or we want or wish to do, after that certain point of time, we will never do that again.. Do not ever make ourselves regret for the reasons like not accompany them while u can, not create more memories as busying with own stuffs etc.. 

Life is so unpredictable.. we will never know when our ability will be taken away.. lolz.. Hence, while we r able to do, give our best k, because the capability is such a gift that it is not what it supposed-to-be.. make give more than take k..and, do without any sparing! i still remember while i was having my intern, I do comfort myself that, I am lucky because I can work, I have the ability and strength to carry out my work, because I know, somewhere in the world there are people that do not have that ability maybe due to health reason etc..Sometimes we do not know how precious it is till we loss it.. really.. walking 20 minutes sometimes is tiring, adding on when u have not enough sleep, BUT, it is a blessed that we have the walking ability-to be able to walk.. we people sometimes will take that for granted, till a point we experienced the loss of the ability.. For example, due to dizziness, the floor seemed like tilt one side, and feel imbalance when walking.. or it is so energy-less or facing short-breathe even just walking very slowly.. Tell something funny, it is a bless to be able to smile! I have experienced whereby my lips is so pain that even smiling will cause pain.. Breathing smoothly is also a bless.. breathing without making breath sounds is also a bless.. It sounds funny, right? but yeah, it's actually not.. 

If something gonna to happen, i will do my part and let the way it be..

Thanks really, to those that made me see positive whenever something negative happened.. it gives me the feeling like, thanks for being part of my life! and, it is not our place to judge anybody..

To make things happen, we need to take our own initiative to take the first step, or to make some change.. It can't always be easy, but it is gonna to worth it.. and along the way, remember the original point why we first take up the step.. Do remind me if I ever forget.. hehe..

incarnation

Yesterday night, a moth flies to my rented house at Selangor here.. u know what comes to my mind?

Don't know since when, I love to look up to the sky, wondering.........if  YOU see me..? 您过得好吗？我好想您～

I miss a lot of people, my lovely family, some old frens, the kind people during my intern etc.. Miss them all.. Hope they are doing fine... =)

Recently, I find myself indulge in reading people's blogs, whereby some I don't even know  the author.. Some writing will really really touch me.. Know why? is because of their spirit, the spirit of living～

看的是文字，读着的是心情，感受到文字的力量。。被他们那股用心生活的精神所感动，被他们的正面能量所感染。。认识的，不认识的，都请你们加油oo！=）

oh my intern~

Finally, my two-months plus holiday is gonna to end soon.. Looking back, it was really a fruitful holiday.. Intern, or other name called “cheap labour”; BYE BYE! Lolz.. haha.. XDD

Time really flies.. As I told someone before, the moment I leave, I guess I won’t miss the place, but will definitely miss some people, and yes, that’s what happened..  I just feel like crying the time I came down from office to warehouse for one last time on the last day before going back home..  Really, I miss them.. I miss their loving smile, their loving words, their loving deeds.. it is the smallest acts and words of kindness that touches my heart very deeply~ thank you~!

To abang Megat, I will always remember the times I was at ICD, and he talked to me very gently.. I still remember that time, I was scared on the first day at ICD, but his concern and thoughtfulness had brought me some warmth.. Still remember the time he brought me the book, so to help me in doing my report.. I am touched, he don’t really need to care anything about my report.. You are so nice, very nice, very nice leader, very nice people! My role model, reminding myself that if ever I got the chance to be a leader, what shall I behave like..

To kak Sazili, haha.. I still remember that time, I signed at wrong place, you helped me to print back the GIN.. U r so kind..  =)

To abang Edy, I still remember the very first time I went out to MBI with kak Ina, you told me: tak payah takut-takut” , and then “buat perlahan-lahan tak ape, tak tau Tanya”, “saya tau u malu Tanya”, “u orang baru mar”….. All these means a lot to me.. I’m so sorry because I always brought you inconvenience.. I still remember there was once I called u up to go to MBI for some really urgent matter, and that time u had gone out, but the thing was so urgent that I need to settle by that day too.. and it is already near four, fear that MBI will close soon at five..  That time you told me, “I will come back on 15minutes time”.. omg.. thanks!

Jihad, abang zapis, Shajahan, I really really miss the time u all called me “ding dong”~~ !!!  U said u r happy to see me with the smile, but u know what, I feel really happy to see u all with the kind smile and greetings, even just a “hi” or just “ding dong”! haha..

To Amin, thanks for the times where I had no confidence whether I could do it or not, you are there beside me to give me strength, and made me believe that I CAN.. Thanks for being patience.. U r so good at wrapping.. I still remember the time whereby I forgot what the people said via the phone, and you are there to tell me something like: never mind, I call back and ask.. That is my mistake, and you are the one who helped me..  I felt really sorry, because so often, I was not dare to pick up the phone, I would just wait for u to pick it up, even if the times u r busy with other stuffs.. I am so sorry, and thanks..  And I like to talk to u, just feel relax to chat with haha..

To Amirul, you have indirectly taught me to be relax, to remain calm whatever that comes to us..  I am sorry because there are times whereby I felt very stressed and being not so friendly..  I learnt..

To Pei yee, thanks for fetching me back! Thanks for the guidance given to me before my intern, during my intern, and after my intern.. Stay strong, sis.. Keep fighting!! “sabar yea!”

In fact, besides the skills and knowledge, the most important thing that I have learnt is the spirit..  At first, it was kak Ina told me: sabar.. Then, I learn to tell myself; sabar , sabar; then later I began to tell people: sabar tau, sabar yea~ and this word is so powerful that it really made my path to the end~  I really think that I am getting better at consoling my soul..lolz.. I will tell myself, it is good to make mistakes, if not, I will never learn.. Do my best, I will never got this chance anymore.. Learn as much as I can.. Do, according to your faith, never make ourselves regret for not doing our best as we can.. and believe me, you will feel nice when you can accomplish a task very well, which indirectly build up our confidence..

 People said, the happiest feeling is when you have made people happy.. We will never how true it is till we really do it~ Perhaps, that is the best memory I had made with u all people.. I really love to see you all smile..  I learnt, to be steady, to smile, to relax, to pay attention, to be considerate, to be tolerance, to be detailed and particular.. I learnt also the complexity of human being, lolz.. I have heard different version of stories regarding the same matter.. Perhaps some are real, some are fake.. Different versions of real story arrives from the departure of different mindset, in my point of view.. How good if everyone could stand on others position and think on them, then everything will be simple and in harmony..  I also learnt that there is always some percentage of kindness in ones innermost heart.. So, do good anyway, then u will feel good too..

YEAH, the process is really worth it!!! Sometimes, we really need to step out from our comfort zone and get busy, to know that v can actually do many things that we once think we couldn’t.. Do not limit ourselves, do, as far as v can, then only we know, we are in fact, superb..lolz..haha..

Appreciate every good things and good people that I have met during my intern~ I miss u all! I wish to see you all smile and doing fine, so, take good care and be happy k! Cheers =)

If heaven had a phone

没办法忘记

也不想忘记

如果说您的离开

是为了教诲我

“珍惜”

“抽多点时间编造回忆”

“毫不遗留的给予能给予的”

那我可以说

那代价实在是太大了
真的太大了

“I wish heaven had a phone, so I could hear your voice one last time~”

Even if heaven had a phone, I don’t really know what to say, perhaps, I would be just saying “ah ma, I love You”, just like what I did during the funeral, speak using heart, without making any sound.. Feel like there are many things to tell, but don’t really know what to say.. lolz.. Perhaps the most matter is, to hear your voice..  really miss it..

Spend time with those you love..  One of these days, you will say either: “I wish I had” or “I’m glad I did”.. –Zig Ziglar

Appreciate, please.. While v still have the chance~ Give without sparing.. Never make ourselves regret.. Please.. (I’ll remember this feeling, and keep reminding myself what should and what shouldn't…)

Life moves on.. and yeah, no matter what, I will still remember that I’m blessed.. ^^

as simple as that

“I realised how lucky it's just to live as a very very ordinary person. ”

Saw this somewhere.. Dunno what the feeling is when I saw this.. a mixed feeling, perhaps is a mixture of touched, gratitude, blessed, compassionate etc..
Being an ordinary person, I feel gratitude..
( Perhaps we need to be more caring and alert about other's stories, to know how blessed we really are..)

warmth comes after coolness

Lets rewind what happened yesterday..  Have been waiting for two hours before the kinta bus finally came, misses two kinta buses which were unwilling to stop to pick up the passengers , one was due to too many passengers in the bus, another due to unknown reason as the bus was not full, so I classified it as driver’s irresponsibility.. Adding on, there is a restaurant beside the bus stop, and the cars were simply being parked by those people, which had hindered our vision to look for the bus.. Luckily, I was not alone that time.. There were people waiting with me too, making me felt more secured..

By the way I reached home, it was already around 940pm.. From 630pm, waited till 830pm, got onto the bus, jammed, took one hour plus to reach.. damn.. 

But what touches me is, when I was almost reached home by walking, from far, I was shocked to see my uncle was standing outside the house, waiting for me to come back.. My auntie was waiting at home too.. I was touched, because, they normally go to sleep early.. They were supposed to have their sweet dream at that time..  When I was in the bus, I was still thinking:” who cares? “But their kind deeds make me feel the warmth when I was so cool, both physically and mentally, as the air-corn of the bus that I got on was damaged.. And the weather was so cool to me that time.. But, all these become unimportant, as the inert coolness had been balanced up with the inert warmth, though was still felt cool physically..

   

It was in the “coolness”, that the question “who cares?” being asked, will provide the clear answer..

Sometimes, I wonder, is it better not to know the time? When working, sometimes, I tend to look at the clock, and start to count down.. While waiting for the bus, I tend to look at my watch, to calculate how long I have been waiting..  All these made me feel that myself was not being present.. However, undeniable, on the other way of looking, time is important so that we can do adequate preparation, planning before time, be puncture to work etc..

I wonder if somewhere some people experience the same thing with me too? Haha.. If it were, will they experience the same feeling as me too? 

Thanks for being a good example

Shift department every week during my intern, from admin, to inventory control department (ICD), customer service, then to HR, account and this week back again to ICD..

If u were to ask me, which department I like the most, and which job I like the most, I will definitely give two different answers to each question.. 

To me, the working environment, the people that work with, is far more important than the job itself..   I encountered people which always being that sarcastic and inconsiderate, but at the same time, I encountered people who are so kind, tolerate and considerate, too.. Sometimes it really makes me feel not good to face some people's bad attitude, but I am grateful, as because of that, I am get more appreciated to those with good attitude and personality, and not to become those that make me feel not good.. Besides, I experienced the difference between the environment working at office, and the environment working at place other than office: warehouse.. I was shocked to notice the difference.. WHY is it that people working at warehouse, with no air-corn, with the lack of manpower, needs to carry goods from here to there, and there to here, and they can do all these without grumbling, and besides, they are also real, both inside and out, which is totally contradict with those working in the office, with air-corn, without the needs to use so much energy, as they were sitting comfortably at office most of the time.. WHY it can be that contradict???!!  WHY it is that way and not the other way round?! The environment at warehouse is so friendly, with no “story” from A and different “story” from B which is just so complicated.. The thing I even get shocked when I saw the supervisor helped in cleaning, picking up the rubbish around the big, green rubbish bin.. It happened yesterday..  It was a rainy day, the rubbish was simply being thrown around the rubbish bin.. He, with a raincoat, a boot shoes, a cap, helped to clean up the place!!! OMG.. I touched, really really touched!! He won’t be given any extra bonus for that, but he did it too, and IT WAS RAINNING!!! IT WAS A BIG RUBBISH BIN!!! He really went to the big green rubbish bin and picked up the rubbish, which was wet, with his hands!!! He compressed the rubbish so that there would be enough space for rubbish, and he did it by going inside to the big green rubbish, and stepping on the rubbish with his feet! He can always ask his staff, warehouse assistant or top cleaner to clean the rubbish, but he didn’t.. He did it himself..  Some more, he isn’t needed to do all these at all.. That’s not inside his job scope..  But he did it too without thinking any reward.. He is so considerate, I guess it was because of raining, that’s why he didn’t call up the cleaners.. He was not angry, not even one word of complaining..  While his staff went to help up, he was worried and asked whether he needed a boot..  By the way he finished cleaning, he got wet.. Before he could sit down and rest, there was lorry coming to send stocks.. Being the supervisor at warehouse (receiving area), he got to receive the stocks, chops, signs, checks, records etc.. I was grateful to witness all these.. I won’t believe it until I witness that.. Who will believe a supervisor will do that.. But he did.. He did it while no one else, but just the ICD and warehouse assistants know about it.. He is the best supervisor I ever seen!!!! He is a good example to me! Not only a good example being a leader, but also a good example to be a responsible and dedicated people!! He thinks not only himself, but others.. He had been so considerate, tolerate, caring, and kind to me too, though I am so blur.. I had once seen him doing his job while during rest time.. Again, he won’t be given any extra pay for that!! And frankly speaking, the company is kinda selfish in paying wages to the employees.. Warehouse department is the department that is so dedicated.. There had been a stadium fare held for one week plus, they are the ones who bring the stocks to and from stadium, and, I got to know that they cleaned up the stocks at stadium till 230am, and the next day, they need to work as normal, on 930am!!!!!! I don’t know what to say, but touched.. I would say, all the warehouse staffs are so kind, so dedicated, so nice, so caring, so considerate, so loving, so tolerate.. : “Tak tau Tanya, perlahan-perlahan tak pe”,  “tidak semua orang pandai buat semua benda, ada yang mereka pandai buat, ada yang mereka tak pandai”, “sudah makan? Makan apa?”, “jangan cakap penat, buat apa pun penat, tidur satu hari pun penat kan? Jadi, buat saje, jangan cakap penat”, “saya suka penat, buat kerja tak penat tak best, penat tidur best, esok pagi baru fresh”, “experience, bagus” etc.. omg, those kind words did hit me.. They are so understanding!!! I was down because I didn’t manage to do the job well.. I need those kind words that time.. I was surprise, how they can be so understanding to me! I got strength from them.. I can say, warehouse, though no air corn, it is the best department to work with..  Although I was placed at ICD, haha, but actually warehouse and ICD is just two departments that works together, warehouse department to receive goods, while ICD is to check goods.. Frankly, I am not really like the job at ICD, to check goods, because when the goods is so much, it can get into very very messy condition.. And we need to find the supervisor to check the goods with us together, and sometimes, it is hard to find the supervisor, sometimes they got so busy to ask for, sometimes, we need to listen to their grumble and scold when asking to check the goods received together..  I could understand sometimes, that they are busy, as I also don’t like people to disturb while doing my own job, but what to do, ICD can’t proceed without supervisor..  And if ICD can’t proceed, supplier got to wait, and the goods can’t brought in to display for customers to buy..  Considerate from all parties is absolutely important..

I learned from them, what is meant to be dedicated and responsible, which can only be shown by actions and deeds..  Dedicated is not only limited to only their own job, but the whole company.. Thanks for the care, thanks for being so considerate, and that tolerate to me as I was so slow, and blur.. Thanks for being the good example of a leader that made me wana to follow.. Thanks for making me believe many good leaders do exist.. Thanks for touches my heart with your kind deeds during the time I felt uneasy about the quality of some people with post.. lolz.. Thanks for inspiring me in terms of what should do and shouldn’t act like when one day we became a leader.. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.. =)

Be present

When works and play makes no difference to us, we know, that is the time where we really enjoy all the processes in life, for every moment, every single details in life..  Whatever that comes to us, we enjoy it, feel it, and live it..

One day, I will make it true.. =)

How to be present????? I am still learning..

“Where the stocks put at? The stock is to return or to receive? The goods short how many grams? Where put the files at? Where have the things put to?” etc.. The moment giving the response of “I DON’T KNOW”---I know, it is a sign of not being present.. Must get it improved.. I will..

Only to be present, we live..

I wish I am given wisdom to understand other people, what they thinks and how they feels, to put ourselves into their position, as I know, our deeds sometimes did influence others.. Learn to be considerate.. But before that, to understand others, we need to understand our first.. To know what and why we are feeling so, to feel what is to feel, to feel how the feeling actually is, and let go the negative feeling..

I live.. =)

angel beats demon, always

To how many times that need to undergo the loss of the things, people, pets and many more others before get to readily learn how to appreciate every single of them.. for every single minute?? To how many times that is needed to suffer for the loss so as to readily realize or learn how much we actually love those things more than we can ever imagine?

Sometimes, I wonder why people suffered so much with those pains and fought so much for survival still able to stand still and be that positive while those that are much luckier but still grumbling and crowded with those negative thoughts.. I wonder how that goes, but I believe, everything happens for a reason.. Well, though feeling psychologically imbalance haha,  I know I shouldn’t judge anything.. One thing for sure fair and square is, we were born to this world, and one day we got to let go everything and leave.. Maybe what differentiate that will be the moment we leave-- are we in peace? Have we live fully? Appreciate, makes no regret.. And, learn to let go.. Whether the person that leave is Thou or me, letting go is always a good lesson.. Letting go, a lesson where everyone needs to undergo.. People leaves, one by one……

This week I had been crowded with some negative thoughts quite frequently.. As quote goes, we need to be a happy person before we can bring happiness to the person around.. We need to be a positive person so that we can spread out the positive frequency.. I know that.. In fact  I was happy that there was once during my intern, a people told me that he was happy to see me in the morning, because I would smile whenever we met.. I was touched by that, really.. You know, it gives me a lot of strength.. haha.. How powerful kind words and actions is.. I am sorry that sometimes I got irritated by words and deeds easily..  Thanks for those that still able to bear with me during the time where even I myself couldn't able to bear with myself due to clumsiness, irrationality, emo, and other flaws that myself might not realize..

I guess I am better at consoling.. haha.. at least to console myself.. Easy said than done, especially during a comfort environment, to make a promise isn't a big problem, just easy to say out.. But when something that happened really turns down, I forget the promise to myself: be positive.. be happy.. just smile..  However, I am blissful because, whenever I see demon, there I see angels too..  and the power of angel has always won..  I felt touched, deep from my heart.. There can see, who really being sincere, and caring.. Keep reminding myself that not people’s responsibility to treat us well.. So not to blame if they don’t and be grateful when they do..  I had been finding my ways to convince myself, to comfort myself.. Sometimes I feel funny that what I said to people, when it comes to me to face the situation, I can’t convince myself with those reasons.. haha..  But now, I guess there is some improvement, to convince myself that be always positive, appreciate and live in the moment, and be high in EQ and wisdom.. If we don’t want what others do to us, don’t do that to others too.. Don’t build our emotion to other people.. Be rational..

People, lets us do it together, ok? Appreciate, live in the moment.. Be positive, be happy, be patient, be strong, be responsible.. Just smile no matter how we feel.. We will never know there might be some people that need our sincere smile..  Spread out the love! Be positive, so that the environment around us is positive with our existence! We will never know how great it feel when we can readily find the meaning of our existence, really..  Keep the faith! All the best! =)

A nice song which gives me strength^^