My family background taught me a lesson whereby, nobody in this world has the obligation to treat you well, not even your parents or next-of-kin, not to say those who are not genetically-related to you, like friends..
Looking back, feel blissful because of my background, I learned to appreciate those that treat me so well, so protective, so voluntarily and willingly to help me.. Everything happens for a reason, Every cloud has a silver lining, everything is a good thing at the end if you believe that, sometimes it just depends on how you view it and whether you can actually find the good side of everything..
Sometimes during the silent night, will think of my beloved grandma, I miss her..
She taught me, to give whenever it is possible, before it is too late.. Because I had the experience of "dying", thus, I learned that everything has its "expiry date", so everything you do now is the preparation for the day to come, so when it comes, everything is in peace, no regrets, no stain of life..
P/S: It isn't called pessimistic to have such thought, maybe it is a proof that we have grown up we have learned~
Come to think of that: love isn't a selfish thingy in such a way that solely about you feel lonely so you need love; love should be about giving; two-way giving, mutualism, that they feel loved to have you, and so do you.. It is called love too, to see people feel loved =) Loves from family, Loves from relatives, Loves from friends, Loves from the special ones.. Yeah,, Love is powerful! It's a support, an energy to keep people moving =)
2014 has nearly come to has to the end.. Before that, I wanna to say to those: Thank You! Love you all!
Really grateful that I met somebody that really have their life full of colours and rainbow at their young age: e.g.: climbed Mount KK at the age less than twenties.. And the time he told me: "need training geh", "climb batu caves 10X".. lolz.. then I know that how many hardships he had been going through to have those great successes in his life.. Yet, he is so sunny with his bright smile wearing all the times! Keep it up k, SH! Just that, please take good care n love yourself more k!!
Touched by those people that have so much passion in their life~ 被他们对生活的那股赤子之心，热诚与不倒的精神与态度所感动，间接地重燃对生活的热忱～
I still remembered that somebody told me that: 去学咯，每个人生出来都不会。。。的啦～学下学下你就会变厉害咯~ haha, well said.. and he really proved it right, proved to those that had looked down on him at the very beginning they were very wrong..
As I always said, life is always unpredictable, but so far, though there are some regrets for things that didn't do while you still have the chance to do, I am satisfied with what I have been going through in my journey, and blessed and grateful to the great people that I have met so far =)
There are always somebody which you really feel like you wanna to protect them, without a reason.. So take care people! Love yourself more so I will also feel good hahaha..
"Success people will never blame on others, They will always blame on themselves first.."
"Attitude matters.. Take initiative to learn n ask questions.."
"Create the values in ourselves.."
"Talk to the people." (not only listen to one side)
"Stand on others position and think."
"HR is very important.."
Lets divide life into several levels, being born into this world is the first level, student's life as second, working life be the third, and the forth will be during the final breath lolz.. Congrats that we have passed the second level in our life, and it marks the begin of a more challenging n amazing journey ahead..
In every stage of life, we will encounter different things and people.. People come, people go.. Blissful and grateful that I met you all in one of the stage in my life-- my great PMP coursemates--Shu Xian, Poh Yee, Caroline, Regen, Jake, Chai Yoke, Lai Yee, Chek, Shan, Chris, Anngie, Mei Theng, Vinse, Joo Ann, seniors (PM--Pei Wu, Meng Meng, Jia Yan, PMP, PMTM--Juanyih, dearest juniors--Joanne, Kit Mun, caring roomates--Hui Shin, Kah Moon, Yi Jin, Kit Wei, uni frens, korean language teachers-Lee Ji Soo Sunsengnim, Lee Jung Lim Sunsengnim and BBE & TOPIK coursemates, and more and more~ Thanks all of you that accompany me in the journey! Take good care and all the best boys and gals!!
Lots of thanks to Choong gor, he purposely took leave to attend my convo, having to wake up early and had a little jam on the way to UPM, purposely bought me the expensive sunflower for photo shooting, thanks for all the care given--brought me the water, helped me took photos, helped me carry my stuffs and more and more!! I am really touched to have you bro!
Around 10.30am, 031114..
台上五秒钟，台下四年功～
Hope they will present on whichever my big days ahead..
“人生，其实只是一场骗局. 到了最後，你就会知道. 原来最重要的，都不重要了”--白色巨塔
其实，都不是那么重要罢了，是我太高估自己的存在了。。 在生命的面前， 你其实只是浩瀚长河中的一粒沙
Was having sense of loss after that.. hmm.. but, what passed is passed, 都过去了.. Will cherish every moments v had every memory v had created.. Take care people!
Don't like to make promise, just let actions speak.. =)
Putra Gemilang-- my eyes became watery the time we sang the song for the very last time..
Thanks, UPM!
This afternoon while having nap, I received a call from my cousin, which later was passed to my aunt, saying that she had been calling me since yesterday night ('coz is my birthday haha.. *touched*), but couldn't get me. She was worried and afraid that I was missing!!.. OMG..but i really didn't receive the call wor.. then later I called her back and she told that her phone has expired that 's why lolz.. haha!
Then, she asked me: if lets say u r missing, who should I find? Next time you have better give me contact of your good friend..
Then.. I laugh.. then..bye bye.. =)
(End call)
Contact of good friend? Aha.. all my good friends aren't staying with me wor.. probably I also don't know..
In case I am missing..? oo..don't ask me, I wouldn't know..
I wish to go back to the place where I can get my warmest hug..
Cried recently omg..lolz.. But, bear in mind, that's my CHOICE.. is time to grow up..
If you wanna grow up, to have self-improvement, then, please stay out of your comfort zone, then only you can see; and that's what I have been doing right now, though I will still fall into negative frequency sometimes, which I will get back up again.. :)
I still consider myself a lucky n blessed kid hahaha.. because, compared to what she is facing now, mine, is nothing a big deal..
The importance of update and keep track..
Just because life is so so unpredictable..
Don't know what I can do to help, perhaps can't help.. I wish to call you, but I don't know what to say; I wish to find you to know if you are doing fine, but I don't know how I gonna to find you; I know you are feeling sad and helpless right now.. In fact I can't totally understand how your actual feelings deep from the heart, because only you will know, but I just wana say: you have us, and we really love you, our prayers are with you, my dear, stay strong!!! hugsss!!!
This post is somehow little bit of continuation from my previous post haha..
They said I am a perseverance and determined person, but do they actually know that I had been saying some discouraging words during the mountain climbing? Wonder my teammates actually remember about that, but I did remember I said it before: "我不行了"(during bukit tabur) , "你们继续走吧” (during bukit apek)， “很想呕” (during broga & bukit apek).. wonder how they actually felt when I came out with those words, sure didn't feel good, I guess..
Just that, at the end, will just get up and keep going.. *lucky that i did so* hahaha =P
"You are worth more than diamonds, all the diamonds in the world. You are so precious every single one of your heart. You can do something not just something you can do but you can live...Life! Life is not always good, life is always not gorgeous. But life is worth living when you find purpose."
"You have to make important decision, man. You don’t know what to do. Who do you believe? Follow your heart. If that is what you wanna be If that is what you wanna do in life, then walk toward it. One day at a time."
"I know somebody who couldn't be a pilot. They are doing sound now that they actually love to do. See all things come together for the good, which is how you see it in my life."
"Because it is nothing good having no limps. But I love my life! Do you want know why? Because I have seen the purposes."
"You know if you think that you have no purpose, “Nick, I don’t know what to do. I wish I could do this but I don’t think this is gonna happen in my life. “Let me tell you so many people come up to me and say “Nick, I don’t have a purpose. I don’t know what to do in my life” Let me ask you one thing... If you went through your life full of pain full of tears, and at the end of your life you actually save somebody’s life. Is your life worth living? Is the pain worth someone’s life if you could actually save somebody?"
"Let’s say you have a problem in your life and you wanna give up now. Imagine if someone is 10 years older who have exactly gone through the same thing you have actually got through it. And he came to you and said “I know how it feels. I have been there. I have been going through what you are going through now, but I’m still here.” Will that not encourage you? Could that possibly save your life? Yes, isn't that not a good purpose worth living for? And that is why I believe in you, because that is the great purpose in life. It is love, honestly."
"I’ll tell you I was walking this way “You’re not good enough, no one like you and you can do nothing good in your life. You can’t do this you can’t do that. No is gonna to marry you and all this things” and I get to the edge and all I need is that one more person to tell me that I’m not good enough and I’ll be down there. Do you know you could be that one person for somebody else to push over…? You don’t know how many people have eating disorder in the school. You don’t know how many people want to hurt themselves in the school. They hide it. You don’t know how many people hate their lives."
"Be the change you wanna see. And you be that person then you turn around. "
"We all have gone through something. We all try to find that something that happiness. You can find it. Because I found it. Take an instance, you need to learn something. Do you know for you to learn something you’re actually learned by somebody else? Anything anybody else learns you can actually learn. Make sense? Right? How do you know that it is black? Because someone has taught you it is black. Why? Because someone learns that it is black. And when you learn you know it is black by someone teaching you. Nothing is beyond your reach. "
"Look at me and my life. I make choices and this is how I am. This is what I am. And I love it. "
"You have a choice to either up with somebody or put someone down. You either to have a choice to step towards your goals and dreams or step away going into temporary things. You have a choice either to give up or keep going. Give up or get up. When you fail, try again. And again, and again. "
Thanks for the encouragements which keep me moving forward!!!
Taken from:【漫画】人为什么要努力
Saw this, omg, how truly it describes my thought!!!
Phone has its battery charger, and so do me =P
I was attracted by another offer at Ipoh lolz.. but, wait, how can I forget the reasons at the very beginning I choose to stay at KL? wanna explore, wanna see the outside world, wanna gain experience, wanna work at big company, wanna stay out of the comfort zone, for the sake of loved ones, to give etc., and most of all, don't run away before you manage to solve the problems please!!! I am and had always been very blur, too blur, always don't pay attention to the surrounding, not alert, live in own world; not smart, not flexible enough in doing something, feel panic very easily, too introvert to talk to people, passive, forgetful etc.. I know the problems, and frankly speaking, I'm afraid to face the problems, but NO, must face it, solve it, manage it!! If not, same thing would happen and repeat again, like a bad cycle.. Stop the cycle, face it, solve it, manage it!! You know how to lock yourself inside own world,why don't you know how to unlock it CT?! Between, really thanks my friends that had been so patient and so tolerate to bear with my blur, "fish-fish" and introvert personality.. I really wish to know, how much did you all bear with me? guess, it's a lot a lot a lot..
"不用紧的，只是被狗追的时候比别人跑得慢罢liao jek.." This is what my friend Shi Yew told me when I was in Form 6 that time.. so sweet and warmed whenever I think of it.. Don't know why recently always think of this lolz.. y ar? haha.. lolz..
Because time is limited, so use the time wisely, and do right things.. =)
过去遗憾和愧疚的伤口仍然会隐隐作痛的，回不过去了，但拥有的当下，应该知道什么该做了。。
"可以犯错，但不能犯同样的错，因为同样的错再犯就是你的选择了。。"
"You can never make the same mistake twice; because the second time you make it, it's not a mistake, it's a choice. "
"The joy of life consists in the exercise of one's energies, continual growth, constant change, the enjoyment of every new experience. To stop means simply to die. The eternal mistake of mankind is to set up an attainable ideal." - Aleister Crowley
Because I always receive kindness from some special kind people, so this post is special for them!! =)
Vinse, thanks for helping me to "move house" lolz.. I really don't feel nice to always trouble you, to receive help from you without giving it back in return.. Same like last time interview, if not you, i won't be able to attend the interview, though at the end I rejected the job as the job did not suit me.. This time also, the car is full of my stuffs omg; u said it is small matter only, because we are friend, but, I really appreciate that, because it is not something to take for granted..
A billion billion thanks to my cousin bro n wife, chong gor n sherry for sparing your precious time with me, giving me a treat: the home-cooked soup and everything, bringing me to Pasar Malam, n buying me the necessities: the table, and rack.. Thanks for the care!!! It means a lot to me! =) Felt so warm!
Lots more actually..
Those are the momentum for me to keep going!
And what made up my mission in life! =)
"I am strong, because I've been weak. I am fearless, because I've been afraid.I am wise, because I've been foolish."
Sometimes, just a simple phrase will boast up our energy; because I felt myself so foolish today hahhaa, this phrase really..thumbs up! haha.. XDD Thanks for the inspiring quote, though simple, it is awesome! ^^
Take the challenge till u success! :-) We can!!! :-)
无论环境如何改变，心态一定要正确~
Don't know why, I think that HR & Admin position is a nice job, because it is just like a helper behind the scene, to service and contribute the whole team, to help in the smoothness of the team's job, to take care of the well-fare of members of the team haha, though sometimes the workload is really omg, haha, but, make it the best! haha.. =)
Be positive, remember the direction and don't grumble k, now and in future, ct! =)
Can't u see me? I am in the picture wee! haha.. :’)
Behind me, a hotel.. not bluffing k =P
The world is so colourful! =)
[ hmm.. is it in fact just made up of black & white?]
Yet, it is so beautiful! =P
I love my hometown so muchhh!!! =D
Love to explore, love the simple beauty!!!
Enjoy those simple great moments!
Gonna start another chapter of my life soon.. hmm.. The starting might not be easy, but, u can pass all those “tests” with “flying colours”, just like all the “self-inspiring stories” gained in the past chapters— in studies, those F6 tough times, the very first year in uni, internship, mountain climbing, Korean language course (especially in level 2), from a dependent girl to an independent girl, from a weak person to a strong one, from a totally blur girl to selective blur girl haha, and more and more and more.. Still remember how u managed and conquers all these? haha.. Create more and more of these k, CT =) (self-talking lolz haha.. =P)
Rest for a longer time? Yea, I wish to, really, but I worried that if I do, I would become an old, rusted engine, that would require a lot more energy when I wana to start up again.. Adding on, step out of our comfort zone! If u want to learn more, explore more, step out of your comfort zone.. (But don’t let the world change who you are).. Life may not always turn up to be the way we want it to-be, but we can change how we look at the matters.. We can always find ways to make it to the best!
Psychologically prepared for your next chapter??? (^_^)
Had been seeking for a job recently.. was such an adventurous exploration omg.. haha.. guess is a good training for me to be a pro backpacker haha! =P
Still keep the faith that, whatever comes, is the best; and if it isn't, make it be the best.. So, for the time being, still not manage to find a job that suits me, and am not going to simply accept the something that do not suit me.. for the something I wish to get, whether it succeeds or not, I believe that it is still for the best of me! telling myself: no rush.. be patient.. don't lose hope.. don't just think of the short-term benefits, but long term consequences~ haha.. :)
Appreciate every single moment as there is no turning back in life ^^
Still remember we captured a lot of photos at the airport till people looking at us in a weird way.. But, how they looked at us was no longer important anymore haha! XDD
Don't know exactly how much do I love them, a lot a lot a lot!!! <3 Thanks for everything!!
Life is a journey, is a process.. At the end, it is about what you leave behind~ <3 Keep those touching moments.. Promise to myself: Bring along with me, whenever it is, wherever i go, keep in mind that what makes my life a meaningful one!!! =)
Because easier said than done, because life is full of unexpected surprise, because we might loss our direction somewhere in the middle, because we might forget the reason why we hold on for so long, because we might get fed up sometimes, that's why we must remember our mission in life, why we are here, what makes our life meaningful, and what reasons that give the passion to our life! : )
My dear 38 po, kah moon, thanks for the everything--your care, your concern, your thoughtfulness, your efforts etc.. Sorry and thanks for bearing with my faults.. Sometimes u are just as blur as me, yet u are really a very capable person =) Nice to have u! gayao ar, sha po! Love u, muacks!!!
Yi jin, 谢谢你的善良， 细心，善解人意，和乐于助人！ =)
Kit wei, 你真的好随和，不计较，很用心地对待身边的人！Thanks for the helps given to me voluntarily all these while! =)
So as promised--“毕业后再来blog一个” - 充电中， so here it is! aha! =D
Really really need to say "Thank You" to all my lovely PMP coursemates! My uni life become so wonderful so amazing because of you all! You all are so so nice, so kind, so lovely!! All of your kind deeds, even just a very little one, had always touched and warmed my heart so so deeply!
My lovely "sisters" shu xian and lai yee，I think u all r the one that know me the most and have the most cooperation with! haha! My dear wong shu, thanks for tolerate with me and taking care of me, and stay with me during my tough times! 还记得你们俩在阿嫲离开我的时候，你们send来给我的sms..当时的我心都碎了，而你们却用行动温暖了我的心！即便是一封短信，却足以让我感到无比的窝心。。Shu xian, 我觉得你跟我的性格最像了，一样blur, 一样没有方向感，但是或许是这样所以跟你在一起很舒服！还记得那时候在hosp. Serdang 你send 来给我的笑话SMS，还记得那时候生病了你为我打包uncle的青豆炒饭和old flat 的饭，还记得在去台湾之前第一次说出我的真实感受，不知道你还记得你为我做的这一切吗，这些统统都牢牢地刻在我的记忆里！
Lai yee, 我们的大gar姐， that really take care of me so much! Still remember that time I called u up ( I was sobbing that time, oops.. haha), your care and concern really touched my heart!! Sorry for being so emo and so quiet and so indecisive.. I admit that I don't really take good care of myself , and you are the one who take care of me, more than I know to take care of myself!
Poh Yee and caroline, u both really helped me a lot, help me solve problems in academic, as well as in daily life! U two have a very good EQ, good in heart, good in temper, good in words, good in actions! always so willingly and voluntarily to lend me your helping hands! I am sorry for always mafan u two.. always ask this ask that.. always mafan u two but u two still stay there for me! thanks really for being so tolerate with my indecisive personality where I myself can't bear with myself haha! Thanks for always being so nice to me! Thanks caroline for always fetching me back home.. Thanks you two for supporting me during mountain climbing! Thanks caroline for the lovely call when I lost my purse n IC, I was so nervous so down that time in fact.. Thanks Poh yee for helping me so much during skytrex!!
~mountain climbing team~ yee..all are September babies!
Regen and Jake, haha, thanks for taking care of me during the mountain climbing.. thanks for being so tolerate with me and very sorry for being so troublesome to u all--leaking water bottles, timid personality, silent mood etc! Thanks Regen for everything, ur efforts, ur guidance, ur helps during these four-years time.. You are my superb sifu and counselor, as well as our superb PMP king! Really really really learnt a lot from you! To me, regen n poh yee are the very very "geng" people--know a lot of things, all-rounded, and also high in wisdom! Regen, thanks for the life guidance u had taught me--law of attraction, how to observe, taught me weng chun (sorry for giving up in the middle), taught me the rubic cube, and gave me a lot of counselling and useful advice and many more! Thanks for being so patient to me, I think I fail to relieve your burden as I am so indecisive and not alert.. Sorry.. stay positive yea my respective sifu! ^^
Really feel so lucky to meet someone who shares the same dob and same blood type with me! haha.. jake, such a funny, smart and creative person! =)
Chris and Shan, stay sweet sweet yea!
Chek, aha! you are good in heart.. hehe.. Lets grow up together! all the best!
Chai yoke, thanks for always fetching me back, fetching me to Bank for the lost card! =)
Anngie, someone who owned a good leadership, self-confidence, stability and maturity! =)
游山玩水溜冰flying fox , 这些我们都一起做过了，yeah! 谢谢你们愿意抽出宝贵的时间共同创造这些无价的回忆！=)
Vinse, Joo Ann and Mei theng, thanks u all helped me a lot too!! nice to meet u all as well!
看回我们在一起的照片，心里很感触；我真的真的真的好幸福噢，因为有这么棒的coursemates, 都很善良很好很乐于助人！有你们真的真的很好！Blessed to have you all in the journey! =)
很舍不得你们，很舍不得放手。。但是，我们得向前走，相信前方也有很美好的风景在等待着我们。。还记得某人说过，只要活在当下，珍惜，那就不会有遗憾了～如果有如果，我真希望我能够“快热”起来，与你们的安全感与归属感可以早一点“到来”，编造更多的回忆！
因为回忆太珍贵，所以一定一定要好好珍藏！哈哈。。近来发觉自己记忆变得不太好，有点怕怕，一定要记住那珍贵的回忆呐，有钱都买不到的回忆！ =）
