Lets create great n beautiful memories

Memory is such a wonderful things~ As time pass, it won't change and it can't be erased neither~

As usual, I’m back to my lovely hometown during the semester break.. The house is getting much more quite as compared to last time..  I always have an illusion that my grandma will b there to welcome me back.. The memories I shared with her are still fresh in my heart.. I miss the sweet memories that we had together, seriously, desperately.. In fact, I should have created more memories with her..  I still remember the episode where her youngest son came back from KL to see her..  He has always been a kind son and my grandma although can’t help herself to open her eyes as she was so energy-less that time, but I know, she could feel the love, hear that voice calling.. She knew he were there, she knew that, as there had some hot tears flowing down from her eyes when he called her, telling that he had come back..  All these scenarios are still fresh in my mind, and whenever I think about it, I can still feel the pain.. The feeling is even stronger when I am back home, where she supposing would be there..  There is no turning point in life..  After all these, I will come back to the real world, telling myself that she had already gone to another world and will never ever be here anymore, but it is ok, as she is in my heart.. While my heart is still beating, she will always n forever lives in my heart.. I had been trying so hard to comfort myself that there is no use to cry as we can never be able to change the fact, or say “I love you” for so many times, wondering she could ever hear that..  I think I am getting better now as I have been learning to face my emotions, to let go and to live at present..  And it is important to live at present.. Yes, really important..

The place that grandma used to be there~ I miss U.. love you forever, grandma~

Create a great and beautiful memory while the time allows.. Perhaps it might not b a big and complicated one, but it must b a great one..  It can just be a fun talk, maybe just sitting side-by-side silently, spare times together, laugh together, sampat together, or heart-to-heart talk together..  Simple yet great one.. Somebody did tell me that, if you want to have or maintain a good relationship with others, you got to sacrifice your time for them.. hmm.. Should replace the word “sacrifice” with the word “devote” or “give” I think hehe.. “Busy’ has always been an excuse for people most of the time..  But, I had seen a quote saying that: there is no actual “busy”, it is about the priority.. May be, it is truth..

I understand that a newborn must balance up with death..  Fair and square..  That’s something everyone will experience.. None of us can escape that.. In fact, everyone knows that, but not everyone are truly aware about that or they just act as if he or she will live the world forever..

Be grateful..  Life is full of obstacles, tests and problems.. It is sometimes easy said than do.. Not much people can actually do what they have said or fulfill their promise either for ownself or for the sake of others, especially when things just go the opposite way, or it is so full of obstacles, or got fed up as time passes.. Keep the faith and have hope & passion..  Be ready.. Get prepared to face any circumstances.. Learn how to complete the mission and defeat all the monsters that come over to test our faith..  After seeing quite a number of real-life stories that happened to some people, after some inspiring readings, or we can simply look at every day’s news, that there are lots of tragedies that actually happened around the world..  And of course, at the same time, there are beautiful things too.. haha..  The thing I want to emphasize again and again is, life is so unexpected..  Appreciate the present moment.. Keep positive, stop complaining as there are people that suffered so much to fight for life and they don’t even know whether they will win the battle after all those hurtful, painful sufferings, or wondering after won the battle will that strike them again, or there are people that can’t see, can’t hear, can’t speak, or without limbs or they had been once able to see, hear, speak, or with perfect limbs, but those gifts had been taken away from them for any reasons, or those that have lost everything-the properties and the loved one due to disaster or accident or whatnot, and they still manage to stand up and keep themselves moving on.. Feel blissful that if not of their inspiring stories, I won’t have realized so many things.. Or I will keep being pessimistic and negative and it shouldn't be that way.. I wonder how the frequency functions to bring me to discover or come across to know all these, by chance, or whatsoever the reason it is, thanks anyway for all those inspiration..

Go for the life you really want to, and start it off with the innermost heart..  Be alert and try to find out and discover the beauty in life, as well as the blissful gifts that have been given to us..  Practice kindness, give out our love whenever possible, and find the true meaning in life, because those are the powerful properties that one’s should own and those are the properties that won’t be taken away unless we want to! True love should not be defined or limited to only bf v gf’s relationship; it can also exist in just organism v organism’s relationship. True love is simple, unconditional. It shouldn't make our life so complicated and troublesome that there are people that would rather forsake everything in life and go suicide just for love, if it does, it is not a true love..  There had been times where I really felt that love is so fake and dirty, I had been doubted about love, BUT now my mind changes..  True love will give people warm and hope, if it ever gives people negative feelings, then that is not a true one..  Let go the fake one and be aware of the true one.. Do not try to close the heart so hard despite those betrayal or whatever, because we might need to double up the effort in order to open the closed heart again.. Do not stop to believe in true love! Never ever stop showing or sending our love to others while we still got the chance to do so!  =)

A beautiful video about life

I have been watching this video over and over again.. it is extremely nice! haha..
Perhaps it is just a story, yet, it is so real in the world..
we might not have that super powerful eye to look into people's heart--what happened to them, how they actually feel and so on, but we know, deep inside everyone's heart contains the little story, some encounters, some hurtful experience, or some joyous things etc, just like you and I do, right? if we were to know theirs, what will we do? or, what changes will we make? but the thing is, we will never know that unless we are so understand to the particular person.. and even if we know their happenings, we can put ourselves in their position, catch what they feel, but being different entity, we can't 100% feel what they actually feel deep inside their heart..
besides that, with the world full of materialistic, can we really listen to our innermost voice? or chasing all those "outer" things blindly: the power, the pride etc.. perhaps, all those "outer things" can only bring us temporary satisfaction or happiness, it won't last long, as v might want more and more, or better and better, or newer and newer, or modern and modern and on and on.. perhaps the one that can bring us to the permanent happiness is the fulfillment of the inner voice, the spirit.. somemore, it might be the failure to meet the needs of the innermost heart that make people turns to the outer world.. do not get trapped by illusion..
listen to our innermost voice, know who we are, know what we really want, focus on it, and begin to find solutions from inner heart and not from the outer one.. if u r lost, pick yourself up again without giving up, at least bit by bit, repeatedly, continuously till v see our effort yields the results =) we might get loss sometimes, but we can find back ourselves too.. keep going.. keep positive.. it is the heart, the spirit, the mind that matter.. blessed =)