Omg, looking back, i had been so negative and pessimistic, and i hereby, promise myself not to be that negative again! that's how my mind changes as time pass by..lolz.. haha..
Today ends my third year uni life.. still have one more year for me to enjoy my uni life, as well as to enjoy being a student.. Perhaps, that will be my last chance to experience what a student suppose to experience, to face all the assignments, all the exams, presentation, and most importantly, the FYP.. Hope that i will work hard for my FYP without any grumbling as FYP is just so challenging, but as I know, there are other things which are even tougher than FYP, right? tell myself, not to grumble even if get into an unfavorable condition..
if you were to ask me whether i'm satisfied or enjoyed my uni life, so far, I will definitely answer u, YES, I DO! Lets see, credited to my dear coursemates, I got opportunity to attend the blackout rally.. that's really an eye-opening experience to me, and that event really touched me deep into the heart- be able to see all the people there are so united, so brave, to see their fighting spirit, their care towards the society, to take the courage and stand out for justice.. u will never know how it actually feel like until u experience it.. Never in my mind will I think that i would be there too, to be one of the participant among thousand people there.. frankly speaking, i do feel kinda scared, but what overcome my fear is: if u don't do what u wish to do, u might never get the chance again.. and due to that, i got myself attended, and thereby, i feel the indescribable feeling.. it is so so touching!
Besides, i had my first time to go oversea, to Thailand during my third year of degree, and it is not just an ordinary trip, it is a one-week exchange program.. I was definitely say, i am just so lucky as I had been looking for those exchange program in Taiwan, and in Thai too, but things just go no avail, either no response given, or the response is just disappointing.. However, it brought me to hope when our lecturer introduce us to the mobility program on one occasion.. The chance comes, and I grasped it and there i create good memories with my lovely and caring coursemates that really take care of me so much during the period at Thai, as u know, i'm kinda blur blur thing.. haha..
And one more, thanks a king, Regen for fulfilling my wish! haha.. how fruitful am i! haha.. i enjoy hiking so much though the process is just so exhausting, but when u reached the top of the hill, when u r able to see the beautiful scenery, when u are so close to nature, that feeling is just nice.. haha.. hope i didn't bring too much troublesome to u guys and hope u all enjoy the climb too! haha..
And now i understand why my application to go to Taiwan for the exchange during the mid-term break was not successful.. I am just blessed though i was complaining it at first-why the application not successful? why the advisor turns up to be like that? why why why? and now i know, if i were to go Taiwan that time, i might hate the place so much as my grandma passed away at that period.. In fact, I am so blessed..
Also, i got many astonishing news.. feel blessed that i'm able to encounter many different people with their own story, either someone that I recognized , or a stranger where i got to know their story by occasion, where some of their story really inspired me so so much.. oh my goodness, the more i discovered, the more i feel: what the tests given to them! that's just too inhumane to them.. then after i started to think differently.. in fact i like philosophical things very much since long time ago, i like to search for the philosophical things, don't really know the reason, maybe is to fulfill my inner soul, haha, but the point is, their story had deepen my insight and widen my view--there is just so many of unexpected things in life.. u will never know what will happen next, or what or who will no longer be there anymore, or what you own now, or taken granted for, might be taken away slowly or at once.. no one knows, and that makes the life exciting.. "Appreciate and live your life with no regret", that's one of my friend, who is a cancer survivor, and at the same time is also a future doctor that told me about this. He inspired me in the way where he had never given up fighting for his dream even if he faced so many dilemma, so much pain, so much hurtful, torturing side effects after the treatments.. omg, it is already hard to pursue degree of Dr., it is already very hard to withstand all the side effects of treatments, and it is unimaginable to how much extend the hardness is to fight for the dream to be a doctor while having to withstand all the side effects coming to him! salute him, his strong willpower, his optimistic, his spirit etc.. glad that he had conquered the battle, and still won after some years.. Pray and bless him for permanent health.. believe that he will be indeed a very good doctor in future..all the best!
after encountered quite number of people with their own different story, where some really so so hurtful, either physically or psychologically, i really feel that we are actually being blessed so much.. appreciate the bonus gifts given..
perhaps that is why i try to open up myself , dig my closed heart bit by bit, and learn how to share, because i know, there have my family and my friends that love me and care about me so much, and I should receive their love and care, or i might hurt them, and hurt myself too, right? be positive, as positive attracts positive, and also, what u think that might b negative, but to others, that is really not a big deal or just incomparable, as there are even tougher problems, as the chinese idiom goes: 一山还有一山高! haha.. perhaps there r people that facing the same problems as u do.. it is the mind that decides which destination to go next, before everyone reach the ultimate destination.. have a great testimony before the ultimate destination comes.. live at present and try to do the best every single moment for whatever deeds it is.. coz as u r doing, it might be somewhere there is recording.. mayb, i am strongly believe in karma..i believe in faith that guide me to the right things haha..
never ever stop to give love, care and kindness to others, because these are the things that are so powerful, so valuable, so priceless and are the strong tools to give hope to others..
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